What matters today? - Happy New Year musings

 

What matters today?

 

Today, as I was leaning back, savouring my tea, I was observing how interesting it is that so many human beings I am aware of, live their lives as if tomorrow is what matters.

Let me explain.

The world over, and as a general concept – as there are many exceptions, or in other words, exceptions that I see as many because this exception is how I live and therefore my common reflection – so, the world over, life is generally lived as a pursuit. This pursuit is sometimes called a fight, sometimes called a ladder or a mountain to climb, sometimes called a search or an aim to achieve. It is a constant striving. An idea that somehow there is somewhere to get to, to arrive at.

Thus, today is just a building block for tomorrow. A passage. Something that needs to be done in order to reach something else.

Which leads me to mention dreams. That thing about “may all your dreams come true”. What is this?

Again. Let me explain.

My point of view about dreams is simple: once one has a strong feeling about creating something in their lives, for whatever purpose it may be, and follows that feeling and its indications 100%, the dream is already a reality, every step of the way of its unfolding. It really doesn’t matter what the outcome is. Because the outcome rarely is what we imagined. So, the dream doesn’t necessarily come true, if this means that it fits what was initially imagined. There are so many different openings that present themselves along the way, if we are allowing ourselves to flow with the synchronicities that come forth moment to moment, that what does or does not occur depends largely on the circumstances in each new now step and not on a supposed potential outcome.

It’s all good and well to have vision. To have creative passion. What it becomes – that is free. If we are willing to be bold enough to not want to control its trajectory and humble enough to accept that what is happening is always aligned with whatever we are vibrating into existence. Our frequency determines everything that emanates forth into our world.

So, let’s get back to the initial puzzling concept of living life as a pursuit. What happens to today then?

In all honesty, there is nothing else to live. Today is all there is. Now. Available. And this is what provides every tomorrow. If there is a tomorrow.

What I mean is: none of us know when we will die. And some are actually experiencing terminal diseases. Still, it is unknown how long they will live. And once we die – irrespective of the intrinsic knowingness that existence is endless and therefore death does not really exist for us as beings, only as physical humans – once we die, whatever we were living today is what will have mattered. The future will have in that moment been entirely erased for the deceased.

So what really matters today?

Even if you are going through the shittiest experience – what matters about it, what is there here for you to retain, choose, discard, change, embrace…?

What would you like to enjoy today: busyness, quietness, joy, harmony, excitement, serenity, passion, rush, anxiety, depression, rewinding, relaxing… Whatever it is that brings peace, love and joy to your heart.

In my own experience I have found that even when I am going through a rough patch, even in the simplest terms – could be a very turbulent flight or boat ride for instance – if I land fully in it, with no expectation of what comes next and no need to get out of it, just being present to this that I am in now, everything settles down. It’s like becoming the eye of a storm. Correction: it is literally becoming the eye of the storm. Notice that the eye does not try to cross the storm. It stays. The storm just is. Until it isn’t. And then the eye is no longer within the storm. It is all there is. All there was. All there will be when another storm forms around it.

I often remember: in what way can I honour the ones who have departed and can no longer have the privilege of experiencing life? And in what way can I also honour the ones that are ill or vacant to a point that they cannot be in life, at all?

Side note, just to say that each experience is an experience in itself, which means that being incapable of participating in life is an equally valid experience for whatever purpose best serves the one having it.

Then again, if I have the chance to live the most fulfilling life I can create for me, here, now, today, in the simplest ways, in the most seemingly “insignificant” gestures and moments that radiate so much joy, so much love, so much peaceful contentedness, gratitude and grace, why would I not be this fully? Why would I be focusing on what seems to be wrong with the world, with the people, with politics, with whatever rather than live what I know to be possible, when my heart is not tainted with fear, fight and rage?

Why would I be giving my attention, which means my creative energy, to judgement about wrong or right, instead of just living what brings balance to my system? Which in turn creates balance at a much larger scale… But without even having to focus on the effect this has – why would I forego this gift that is entirely mine to choose, to live, to receive and to offer, now, today, for the sake of a tomorrow I don’t know whether I will get to experience?

Why would I wait for the new year to make resolutions that I know are productive and would like to bring forth right away, otherwise I would not even envision them as possibilities?

Yes, there are some long-term decisions we all have to make. And once we have made them, again, what remains is still only today. Whether we for instance get to master the cello during the next year, or travel to the Fidji Islands, or create a cure for cancer – or whether we don’t, we will only ever have lived each today as it presents itself. Not one moment earlier. Not one moment later.

Say it, do it, live it, enjoy it. In honour and gratitude. Today.

This is my heartfelt new year celebration with ya’all.